I am turning a year older tomorrow and so will my only son. He will be seven and I will be thirty-something 
When I was younger, thinking about 25 seems a long way to go. Now that I am much more older than that, I tend to reminisce and look back at how I have lived my life.
During college, in a major subject called Group Dynamics, we were asked to make a time line of what we have been through, our experiences, be these major or minor, and how these experiences has changed our lives. Mine was a bit “tame” compared to the experiences that my group mates went through.
Save for one major family problem that could have broken up the family which we have survived hurt but not broken in spirit, I felt that I have been living an insignificant life, unexciting even, a “normal” life sans teenage angst and (mis)adventures.
Do I still feel the same today?
Now that I am at this stage in my life, I feel that I have accomplished things far greater than I have ever hoped I can do.
I have helped children more than I can possibly imagine I can ever do.
I have been helpful (I hope) to parents, not just the parents of my students but also those who have been reading my blog.
As of now, I like to think that I am doing a good job, together with my husband, in raising a family that we way we want it to be.
My father who got sick almost two years ago is now better. My mother is well and strong. My brother has a good job teaching in a university.
So many wonderful things to be grateful, so may blessings to count.
If there are some things I would probably go back too and change, there would be three challenges.
First would be being more strong enough to take risks. I did take some risks but I was cautious and I wasn’t able to accomplish half of what I have expected to accomplish. I know it is still not too late to be able to do these things again for the opportunities abound for me, it is just probably me who is holding back.
Second would be to have more time focusing on myself, taking care of myself. I have not been exercising and have gained significant of weight. How would I focus achieving the goal in losing some of the excess weight? Walking? Exercise? Diet pills? Yoga? Less time spent sitting? Restraining myself from eating my comfort foods when I am stressed and tired? Yes, I know, it is not the physical appearance that really matters but as I said here in a post I have written, it is not the kind heart and wonderful disposition that matters in a fitting room 
Third would be to learn how to drive. Yeah, at my age, I admit I can’t drive. I am afraid to try. If one sees how Filipino drivers drive, one would understand. But still, I would not be able to accomplish my first challenge. This too, would still be up to me.
Amidst all the hardships and struggles people are experiencing these days, I still find lots of reasons to smile about and thank God for the blessings 
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