Posted by teacherjulie @ 10:59 pm
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Friday around noon, I sent an sms to my student’s (JEM) mom about our schedule for Saturday, October 13, 2007. After less than a minute she called me up. The start of our conversation went like this:

AM:”TJ, isn’t it that you know D___?” (Di ba kilala mo si D___?) D -> nickname of JEM’s friend and neighbor.


TJ: “Ahh, you mean B____? Why are you asking?” (Ay, si B___ po ba? Bakit po ninyo natanong?) B -> D’s real name.

AM: “She is gone. She committed suicide.” (Patay na siya, nagsuicide.)

TJ: “Whaaat!? How is JEM?” (Ano po!? Kumusta naman si JEM?)

AM: “He is fine. He has accepted what has happened already” (OK naman, tanggap na niya ang nangyari)

TJ: “What happened?” (Ano po ang nangyari?) Of course, I gotta ask why because this is interesting. To say i have only read or heard about this in the news made me very curious).

AM: “They were having problems at home. She was the only child. She …” (sorry too depressing to put in print what she did).

TJ: “Oh my. Poor girl” (Naku, kawawa naman)

AM: “That’s why I told myself not to put too much pressure on my children. I didn’t think children would do that” (Kaya nga sabi ko sa sarili ko, hindi ko ipe-pressure ang mga anak ko.Kung ano lang kaya nila, yun na lang)

A few weeks back, we were shocked by the news about a third grader who committed suicide in her school. This is one that is new to me, at least for now.

I had second thoughts about telling this to my eldest daughter because she is at the same age with D. But I did tell her, in fact, I told the whole family about it. When Ate asked if they were having problems at home, I told her that D’s parents got separated. She went verbally ballistic and said: “If you and father will separate, I will run away. Do not do this to us.” (Kapag kayo ni tatay naghiwalay, lalayas ako. Hindi niyo dapat gagawin yun.)

Hubby and I were shocked. But beyond the shock I felt with Ate’s words, I felt pain.

Burning pain. Heartache. Numbness. Emptiness.

To you D: May you find peace where ever you may be. Be well, young lady.

sunset for D

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15 Oct, 2007 @ 12:17 am

It’s sad to lose someone so young especially in that kind of manner. I heard fragments about it on the news but don’t know the whole story. My heart goes out to the poor child and hope that she finds peace.

15 Oct, 2007 @ 1:30 am
marcia said:

Oh ia m so sadened that someone hurts that much and feels that aloneI amsosorry

15 Oct, 2007 @ 1:45 am
carver said:

That is so sad when a young one is lost like that. Very shocking. I hope she is at peace.

15 Oct, 2007 @ 4:20 am
SandyCarlson said:

This is very sad. Thanks for sharing this thought with us and your beautiful image. Powerful.

15 Oct, 2007 @ 7:58 am
melai said:

there’s this one similar story I know…this girl who was 18 yrs of age or more came from a broken family. Her mom decided to work in middle east when she was just small. She and her younger brother grew with her relatives on her mother side… I knew that this girl needed special attentions not because her parents wasn’t there for them but also because she’s somewhat a special child too (that these people around her cannot see -instead she most of the time was the subject of mockery) and they think that teasing her is nothing but normal.

She didn’t finish her school, nabarkada, and had to work at an early age.

One time she sent a multi-send text messages to all of her friends saying ” sawang-sawa na ako sa buhay na mapagkunwari na kunyari laging nakangiti o nakatawa” not the exact message but with the same though.

And with that message u will know that she was in pain all her life…..

They found her dead that morning with her handfone in her hand.

That is so sad right?

15 Oct, 2007 @ 8:02 am
maiylah said:

this is so sad … reminded me of the student suicides in Japan …
I hope the lost child and the child’s family will eventually find peace

15 Oct, 2007 @ 8:40 am

Hi Julie
I really feel so sad when I hear stories like this, but as parents we should really be aware of our children’s feeling and concerns and we should really talk about it to them and explain it in a way that they will understand how to deal with frustrations. i hope the family will be able to find peace.

15 Oct, 2007 @ 9:02 am
MegaMom said:

This is so sad, Julie. It is also preventable. As parents we should learn to recognize the signs, and also learn when it is time to seek professional help for the kids.

15 Oct, 2007 @ 2:24 pm
tanabata said:

It’s really sad when anyone, but especially young people, see no other way out. Tragic!

15 Oct, 2007 @ 2:35 pm
Kongkong622 said:

We knew of someone who also commited suicide because he couldn’t take what was happening to his family. To this day his parents are still reeling over the event and continue to blame themselves for their child’s fate.

I think as parents we should always think twice, thrice, even a hundred times before we do anything whether trivial or life-altering. Always, always, our kids should be considered first before anything else. Even before ourselves.

15 Oct, 2007 @ 3:16 pm
mousey said:

very sad. with this cases parents are the one being blame. hope family values are still tight now a days.

15 Oct, 2007 @ 3:18 pm
Bengbeng said:

As a child i alone went to a high rise and tried to jump off. an adult caught me jus as I was about to jump. well, i am still here today. it is sad that there was no one there to stop her, very sad

15 Oct, 2007 @ 3:47 pm

This is terrible… So young…

15 Oct, 2007 @ 4:14 pm
Emmyrose said:

I was saddened by that news as well.

Thanks for your comment and visit, you got a lovely photo here.

Hope you don’t mind if I add you in my blogroll, I had a sister who suffered mental retardation since birth and I have high respects to teachers :)

15 Oct, 2007 @ 5:05 pm
Thesserie said:

this is so sad….the suicide victims are getting younger.

may D rest in peace.

15 Oct, 2007 @ 6:06 pm
Yen said:

My heart goes out for the little girl. I hope wherever she is right now she finds peace…

Btw, I’ll add you in my blogroll too if that’s alright:)

15 Oct, 2007 @ 6:57 pm
Rino said:

Hi Julie,
I myself have a third grader. Panganay sa tatlong magkakapatid. I married late in life and perhaps, isa ito sa mga reason, I don’t really know, kung bakit medyo disciplinarian ang dating ko sa kanilang magkakapatid, specially sa kanya bilang panganay. Your post makes me think about how I am raising them. Thanks

15 Oct, 2007 @ 7:54 pm

Electric cable or clothesline (sampayan)?

Missing home….

15 Oct, 2007 @ 8:12 pm
raqgold said:

so sad — we try to protect our children and yet.. :(

16 Oct, 2007 @ 1:36 am
Mary said:

That is so sad. To think that her life hasn’t even begun and she has yet to exprience life. :(

16 Oct, 2007 @ 8:32 am
noemi said:

yes it ’s very very tragic but maybe there could be an underlying chemical imbalance in the child that affected her mental state. Then the separation just aggravated it here. I have written about this already that childhood depression is prevalent but our doctors here can’t diagnose it properly.

Lastly. I hope you don’t mind if I say this so people can be educated on how to say the death was suicide. Today, we understand that most suicides are the result of biochemical illnesses such as clinical depression. Yet, the stigma associated with suicide often forces family members to choose between secrecy about the death and social isolation.

Compassionate Friends Organization Changes Suicide Language

The Board of Directors, encouraged by members and staff, have officially adopted the terms “died by suicide” or “died of suicide” to replace the commonly used “committed suicide” or “completed suicide.” Currently all The Compassionate Friends (TCF)publications and presentations are being updated to reflect the new language. TCF USA

16 Oct, 2007 @ 9:27 am
arlene said:

that is a sad story, Teacher. Made me think to blog when my I thought my mom and dad too was to separate when I was young. I was hoping they wont and if they will– i wont run away but will never go with either of them (i thought that at the young age of 6) to be fair to both. I would stay with an aunt at mom’s side. never at my father’s side! well, they never did separate which later in college, i thought there was one time over…as myfather left. life became better for us..bt he came back. i dunno why mom takes him back. hahaha! maybe she pity him. And then life goes back to being hard again. haiii….

Well to D, hope she feels better where she is now. Maybe she jst took it too much so she ended her life. But young as that, I jst can’t seem to believe it is a S.

16 Oct, 2007 @ 10:12 am
julie said:

To everybody who took the time to share the grief I have felt even if I did not personally know D, thank you very much. Indeed, we as adults should be more sensitive to the people around us. To those who have children, loving your children doesn’t mean spoiling them, giving them what they want but rather, they should know that even if there are problems in the family life, you will always love them, no matter what. They should also know that they are not to blame with anything that goes wrong in family matters. It is also best to not try to be too hard on them,but not to be too lenient too. We do not want these things to happen first before we realize that we have been too focused on ourselves.

One word of advise: keep your prescription medicines where the children can’t get them.

16 Oct, 2007 @ 10:37 am
macy said:

my lola commited suicide a few years ago due to depression. kaya everytime i hear of stories of people committing suicide, painful talaga even if di ko sila kilala. it brings back so many memories that you don’t want to even remember. i will say a prayer for the her and most especially her family. may she rest in peace.

16 Oct, 2007 @ 8:17 pm
rhodora said:

Oh my God. I’m in shock. May she rest in peace.

17 Oct, 2007 @ 12:38 pm
la dy cess said:

ouch. my heart goes to the child’s parents who must be banging their heads in the wall, blaming themselves. kahit wala namang kasalanan talga ang magulang, their tendency is to beat themselves up, just like any parent. i wish that they will soon forgive themselves.

18 Oct, 2007 @ 4:23 pm
Christianne said:

A third grader? Grabe… kids today are under so much pressure…

25 Oct, 2007 @ 1:19 am
annamanila said:

Oh dear, oh dear. A child dying is sad enough. But a child taking her own life … nothing is sadder. Pressure … is it because of pressure for her to excel in her studies? Exacerbated by troubled home life? Oooh i dont know what to say.

I pray that the parents find their way through this. Perhaps the tragedy will pull them back together. That … or it might really drive a wedge between them.

But I heard that in Japan young suicide is no longer uncommon. The culprit is academic pressures too.

[...] If you read today’s papers, Mariannet, a 12 year old girl died of suicide because of extreme poverty. Yesterday, Nel, a 14 year old boy climbed a flyover in Iloilo in a suicide attempt apparently fuelled by rugby. A few weeks back, Julie wrote about a third grader who jumped off from the fourth level of a building of Malate Catholic School because of depression. She was only 9 years old. [...]

19 Oct, 2008 @ 11:49 am

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20 Oct, 2008 @ 2:44 am
Zriz said:

Wow kids these days are screaming help. There should be an avenue for kids to air out their problems and troubles without fear of judgment.Unfortunately, our culture doesn’t do well with children’s feelings and usually pass it as something insignificant…Kaya nga daming children na magpapakamatay kasi wala silang pwedeng lapitan sa problema nila.

There were quite a few schoolmates in college who committed suicide because they couldn’t handle it. Unfortunately, there are signs that one person will commit suicide and only a few know how to identify them. Remember suicide is not a spur of the moment thing. It is premeditated and there are obvious clues that it will happen.

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